Sometimes Up To Something

I've been so irritable and moody lately. It makes me feel bad. Maybe it's because I've been so busy and I just want a rest and for some things to be done for me, but it makes me feel selfish. Another reason could be that it's supposed to be a certain time, but it's not yet. You can probably guess what I mean. It's often been irregular for me and shows up when it's the most inconvenient. And I can't help but wonder if those tests I had a few years back just didn't meet the standards the NHS has for PCOS. I'm pretty sure I have it. I have many of the symptoms, such as acne all over my body, and excessive body hair that's only gotten worse over the years. And while I may not want to get pregnant, I am worried that if it's left untreated, I'll get other health problems like type 2 diabetes and cancer. I don't want that! But it's so hard to get a GP appointment these days. And what if I go through those tests again only to be told ...

So today we finally got round to getting the rest of downstairs sorted out. It involved a lot of lifting, pushing, moving things around, dusting, and deciding where to put a large number of bottles of alcohols at various levels. Anyway, I've been wanting to change the sofa covers for a while. And my Dad was obviously tired and didn't want to do it today. But I wanted to, and I knew he wouldn't want to, so I said I'd do it myself. He didn't believe I'd be able to do it, but he let me try anyway. So I did it. And it was easier than he made it sound. Sure, it did take some effort to get the old covers off and put the other ones on, and I made a few mistakes with which cushions needed which cushion covers, but I managed it in the end. So this time I was actually right about being able to do something I hadn't done before. 

One day I will get there with this story. But I thought I'd share the ideas I have for it at the moment.  Asterism is a story that takes place a very long time from now, where reality is not as we currently know it. Beings called Flares, beings called Bridges, and beings called Voices exist along with Humans, but there are still personal conflicts between them. The Flares knew the Humans for a long time due to being in charge of reincarnating them and the animals, and overall have a low opinion on them, believing that all they ever do is hurt and kill each other. It was only when both their homes were under threat that the Flares offered to help the Humans find a new place to live, in exchange for letting some of their kind share it. They started to get on better after that, but now the problem has become inverted, with Flares being the ones looked down on more often than not... The Bridges were created by the Humans and Flares working together, and were found to have unusual, real...

Maybe that storm was what we needed for there to be clear skies again. I finally got to see some stars again, as well as the moon. Not for long, though, because it was cold. Cold enough for there to be frost this morning.

I've kept forgetting my umbrella most of the time, or not being bothered enough to go and get it before I leave. But this time, after I heard about the weather today, I took it with me to help to protect against the wind. But the wind won. My umbrella got turned inside out a few times, and then broken. The top of it came off the pole, and it didn't look like there was a way to re-attach it. So for the rest of my little walk down to where I go for work training, I was cold and wet, my hands were freezing, and I was holing a broken umbrella that I couldn't use to protect me from the wind anymore. And even worse, I got splashed by a bus because I didn't see there was a puddle where it was driving until it was too late. Then when I got there, I found out this weather was because of another one of those named storms. Apparently called Storm Chandra. I was like "Now you tell me, I didn't hear anything about it being a storm!" I thought it was just bad weather. I...

Is it just me, or did they change the dealine times that mail is collected from the post boxes here in the UK? I could have sworn it used to be 5:30, but now most of them are 4:30. I needed to send something in the post on my way home and I had to walk all the way to find a post box that had a later deadline of 5:00 just so I wouldn't have to wait until tomorrow and delay it any longer. And it meant I missed 2 buses while I did that.

There's this nice park with 2 lakes that I haven't been to in ages. Mainly because it's better to go to with someone else rather than by yourself. So I thought it would be nice to ask my Dad if he wanted to go there with me. But the weather got too bad, and he lacks motivation. I wish I knew how else to help him. A nice walk could have done him some good, if not for the weather. So I went to one of my usual walking places instead. But at least I saw some interesting fungi. And it's still been too cloudy to look at the stars recently, even after a mostly clear day.