Sometimes Up To Something

So today is Trans Day of Visibility. The UK has been very disappointing lately. Having all these laws and rules that discriminate against Trans people. Not letting people like my sibling get the treatments that would improve their mental wellbeing. And even though I don't consider myself to be Trans, it's things like this that make me feel the need to hide my Nonbinary, Genderfluid, and She/They badges from certain family members who still use the wrong pronouns for my sibling (He/They). Most of the time, I don't feel male or female on the inside, but I don't mind having a female body purely because of that (yes this body does have issues but I'm working on them). Sometimes I do feel more feminine, and sometimes I do feel more masculine, but I don't want to have male reproductive parts. My gender is whatever it wants to be.

I ended up telling the truth to my Dad about that Universal Credit thing. The plan was for me to leave work training early and meet Mum in town and we'd go to the library for the phone appointment, then I'd hang around in town after and eventually go home. But then yesterday my Mum said she had to stay at home because she had deliveries coming. I got stressed out when she didn't answer my texts and when I tried to call her, and my Dad heard. Then he heard most of what I said on the phone when she did answer. I told him I didn't want to tell him until after Tuesday because I didn't want him to worry, but he said he might be able to help with it. I should have known I wouldn't be able to keep it a secret that easily. I feel like I upset him if he heard me say I didn't like the idea of him asking all these different questions. It often does feel too much for me, though, like I'm being bombarded with them. Sometimes I need a break. Anyway, we all agreed it w...

Daylight Savings Time, British Summer Time, whatever it's called. Isn't it oudated? Didn't they only introduce it because people used to work outdoors more often? The thing is, not only do some countries not do it at the same time as others, but some countries just don't boher with it at all. And it makes time zones even more confusing than they already are. And also it's just proof that time really is just meaningless and nothing but a construct or whatever. Maybe I'm not using the right words. I'm one of the people who thinks we should just do away with it. Especially since it means it gets darker later so less time for stargazing. I'm still trying to think of when the best time to get up in the night to see things I haven't seen yet will be. 

My Dad is still complaining about there not being much to watch on TV. I feel bad because I didn't want him to have BBC One on while the final of Gladiators was on while I was still downstairs because I was going to be too busy to watch all of it tonight (too bad they only release the episodes on iPlayer early if its usual airing timeslot is postponed), but there was nothing else on at that time and he said he didn't really want to watch the only new episode he hadn't seen yet of one of the shows he watches on streaming because then he'd have nothing to watch another time, but ended up watching it today anyway. I don't know what other kind of entertainment he would enjoy. I've got the internet and video games, he seems to only like TV and podcasts. Is it really my responsibility to find something for him, though? I still feel bad about earlier, I think he understands that I'd rather not see part of an episode when I'm too busy to watch it live because it...

It's that time of year again. The time of year where in the city centre, there's a market with many local creators selling things. Lots of different types of things, made locally. So I just had to go there today. I could have gone tomorrow after the youth club, or on Sunday, but I wanted to go today. So I went, and I looked around, and I got some stickers, and something to eat for lunch. It's a nice thing to do, really. And I prefer to go by myself, although there is one person who I wouldn't mind coming with me, especially since one of the stalls is cat-themed and as it turns out, sells hair clips just like one of the ones this friend got me for Christmas. She must have gotten it online or something. 

Look at me being all alliterative with the title there! So, at the social group I go to, most people will usually end up making a pasta dish for lunch. Which is difficult for me since I'm trying to eat less refined carbs. I already feel like I regained a bit of weight just from one weekend where I ate more regular pasta and white bread plus some white rice. Anyway, the person who runs the group seemed to have gotten tired of having pasta just about every week. So I was under the impression that the next person whose turn it was to make lunch would do something else. Nope. Pasta again. If I'd known that, I wouldn't have made myself a pasta dish last night, nor would I have left the leftovers out on the stove (the kitchen is quite cold). So now I have to go and put the leftovers in a container in the fridge or freezer. At least it means I should have something ready to heat up and eat on Saturday when I'll be busy.    

Come on, it's officially Spring now!!! It should be getting warmer!!! But instead we have cold wind, sudden bursts of rain and hail, and at night I'm still cold even with a coat on!!! The Simpsons were on to something when they came up with "Lousy Smarch Weather". Loads of people use that to react to the unpredictable weather, especially in March. But at least the sky is clear right now so I can see the stars and the moon. I never seem to know when the moon is visible.